through the eyes of Plhong Flores

2011-06-17T11:43:00.001-07:00

2008-02-20T10:50:00.001-08:00

its when you thought it would never happen to you..

and when it finally did..
you get to appreciate life more..
you get to define what happiness means..
at least once in you life..

http://throughtheeyesofplhongflores.blogspot.com/2007_10_01_archive.html

2008-02-12T07:59:00.000-08:00

he.Art from the Gut

Art by Plhong Flores
Feb 16 - Mar 5
Brewberry Cafe (formerly Blueberry Cafe)
Velez - Chaves Sts., Cagayan de Oro City

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY EVERYBODY!!!

2008-01-16T23:42:00.000-08:00

2008-01-13T05:26:00.001-08:00

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces

Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship
And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can
Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing
A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Guy Should You Date?

2008-01-13T05:18:00.000-08:00

You Are 60% Intuitive

Your intuition is often right, and you use it more than you may realize.
Your gut feelings are usually a good guide, but you need more to go on when making a decision.
You'll often check to see if the facts back up your feelings.
And when your intuition is wrong, you work to improve it for the future.

How Intuitive Are You?

2008-01-13T05:12:00.000-08:00

You're Not Exactly a Hippie...

While you're not a hippie, you've got the spirit of one.
Like most hippies, you have deep beliefs and unusual interests.

You may not buy into hippie fashions, music, or heavy drug use.
But at heart, you are a free spirit and suspicious of the status quo.

Are You a Hippie?

2008-01-09T01:57:00.000-08:00

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2007-12-11T23:25:00.000-08:00

"what you do not know wont hurt you | ignorance is bliss"

why is it so hard to just be satisfied why what is given to you?
why do you have to bite the hands of the person who gave you a solution to hunger?
why do you have to make a problem for yourself when you said you had enough of it?
why cant you just be contented of what is given to you?
why do you have to make it hard for yourself?
why do you have to doubt?
why cant you settle for the things that come your way?
why do you have to complicate it Plhong?

Because hes giving reasons to doubt him?
because he gives me reasons to ask for more..
because he is special..
because i dont want to be hurt again..
because i dont want to lose him..

my heart is crying..
my eyes are ok..
its like being squeezed and punched and stabbed but still beating and pumping - non stop..

when everything is so ironic..
when everything is so unsure..
when everything is a blur..

when will you give me rest?

2007-12-09T16:07:00.000-08:00

it has been one hell of a ride..
ill be joining a group exhibit in Iligan City by the way..
some time in December..
the preparation was like - crazy..

blood..
(i got glass cut)
sweat..
and almost tears..
plus stress and a couple of sleepless nights..
finally..
its almost done..
(now back to school for me)

weee..
ill keep you posted with the details..
(that is, if anyone is a regular here.. i doubt though)

now..
for the title of my artworks..
this'll be tough..
darn!

enjoy your day ahead..
ciao!

2007-11-26T18:21:00.000-08:00

ive been "busy" the past days..
hehehe..
with what?
with stuff..
with thoughts..
with people..

i was at Backyard last friday with Borgy, Patrick, Michael a.k.a. Mhike, Greg and Jason..
and Marlone (it was unexpected.. but yeah.. i was glad to see Him that night)..
hehehe..

that's Borgy and Greg

Jason and Michael

and of course..
last but not the least..
Pat and me..
Marlone?
hehehe..
(la na sya ka apas. lowbat na ang cam.. pero u know Marlone.. hehehe.. no need for a picture..)

another night to remember..
(kaw man gud!)
hehehe..

then i was home the whole of saturday..
HANG OVER!!!!
aaah!!
and i was so bulingit the whole day..
trying to read GOSSIP GIRL Prequel and Sex with The Ex..

but my head hurt too bad so i stop..
(Leeeerd.. grabeh ko ka bulingit.. walay hilamos.. hahaha.. tsk tsk tsk.. so thats me when the curtains are down.. HAHAHA..)

and the rest of Saturday was history..

Sunday was the day of the MAJONGERA's..

i was supposed to go to Janno's place because it was his mom's birthday but i had a meeting..
and i have been a regular over at Don's place..

we played til 3am almost..

and then monday..
after my laboratory class i went to Xsalon with Steffi, Xixa, Rhey and Camille..
i was so bored while waiting for them to be done so i took my camera out and started taking of pictures..
pictures like..

Steffi getting her nails done..

me and my silly half..

them?!
and..

him.. OINKY ni betty..
hahaha..
(sorry wala lang jud ko lingaw.. and i was hungry)

then..
we went to Cafe de Pugon..
and Borgy and Pat joined us after a few minutes..
then we ate..
then..
we saw Greg
we went to RER..
then to Terryhills..
then Majong again..
hahaha..

this is how we do it at Lola's place..
less noise..
less trouble..

after sa karaw..
hehehe..
expert na ang mga bayot..

si Don gakatense na..
hehehe..
busy og arrange..

Pat?
cge nalang.. mudaogay naka hapit.. gakafeel na nako..
hahaha..

me, cam-whoring while waiting for my turn..
(dali na mo guys.. wa pay todas dha?)

then coffee time came..
hehehe..
after Audee won, we went home na dayon coz i still have a class the next day (today!) and Greg needs to review for his Nursing Board Exams this Saturday..
haaaay..
lingaw kaayo mag majong..
pawala sa stress..
especially if u play it with people like im with..
hehehe..

thanks guys..

so that's it for today i guess..
im kinda sleepy and irritated..
my brother has been scream his heart out while singing an Avril Lavigne track..
i so wanna shoot him..
hahaha..

2007-11-24T05:38:00.000-08:00

CELINE DION LYRICS - TAKING CHANCES

Don’t know much about your life.
Don’t know much about your world, but
Don’t want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don’t know much about my past, and
I don’t have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it’s not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)

And I had my heart beating down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There’s nothing like love to pull you up,
When you’re laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do, like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)

Don’t know much about your life
And I don’t know much about your world.

2007-11-17T22:07:00.000-08:00

im currently reading Paolo Coelho's The Devil and Miss Prym..
i find it interesting..
im almost finish..
hehehe..
just sharing..

(damn! am i bored?)

2007-11-14T22:06:00.000-08:00

so yesterday was.. a chillaxing day for me..
i went to school..
i was late..
Francis..

thats francis by the way..
Francis invited me to watch a movie..
so we went to Gaisano Mall and watched the John Lloyd-Bea movie..

"One More Chance" was a good Filipino movie..
im not really a fan of their love team but it think i would give it a 7 out of 10..
hehehe..
(if ever you decide to watch it.. make sure u watch it from the very beginning..)

after the movie..
we ate..
then went to buy some cloth for my school uniform..
then after going around Cogon Market, we attended the 5:30pm mass at XU..

we then met up with some friends in Cafe de Pugon..
after, like 30 mins, we decided to buy some food at YEES.. (prolong the word when you say it.. say it like ur saying "eeeew")..
hahaha..
the place wasn't really that inviting..
so we decided to buy the food and eat it somewhere else..
we had the pancit..

and the lumpia..

YUM!!!
the proofs..

"kalma pa si Rocky.."

"si Francis poise pa kaayo.."

"Tua ra Rock!!!"

"Don, calm down"

see guys..
im promoting YEES to you..
hahaha..
its cheap and filling..

anyway..
enough of YEES already..

i woke up early today..
we went to school on time..
i attended all my classes for today..
then afterwards..
i went to Polymedic Hospital to drop something for a friend..
then headed home..

she kept me company today..

she was hungry..
her mom abandoned her..
so we had to bottle-feed her..

and look at the tummy..
hahaha..
then she told me..

she had to excuse herself..
she had to pee..
hahaha..

so adorable..

then it was my time to eat..
i had pansit canton..
and apple iced tea..
then..
i really wanted to sleep..
i tried..

but it seems i couldnt..
sucks!!!
i blogged instead..
hahaha..

2007-11-11T22:02:00.000-08:00

and so today..
i have muscle pain..
thank God i can still walk to the computer and check my mailbox..
*whew*

ive tried something for the (hmmm.. not so..) first time yesterday..
together with Meling and Cookie..

we went Kayaking at Nabulod (i hope im right..) River in Tagoloan, Misamis Oriental..

aaahh..
Anything with water and the sun..

even if i only had 2 hours of sleep..
even if i wasnt able to remove the make-up on my face from last night's "catching up on things" in Karumata, i didnt care..
i told myself..
i have to go..
i must!!!

as so..

in to the water..
under the heat of the sun..
with some sun block and some vanilla-scent tanning lotion we went..
paddling..
and paddling..
and some more..

then our first stop..

(aaaah.. finally.. my thighs and back hurts)
under a huge tree..
we enjoyed the short chat with the wind, cool water on our feet and 3 rounds of..
guess what?
TUBA!!! (with a little coke)
its was another first for me..
but it was really good..

then.. after the 3rd round of TUBA..

we paddled a little more..
then some more rest..

we went..

shroom-picking..
(dont worry.. im not yet a convert of Meling's.. the TUBA was enough for the day..)
it was fun but short coz we had to hurry before the tide goes low..

so off again..
we paddled again..
this time in a narrow passage..

Cookie calls it "the safari"..
but i thought it was more like the Amazon..
mini Amazon River that is..
plus minus the Anaconda..
hahaha..

then..
another round or two of TUBA..

after that..
we paddled again..
and reached a muddy dead end..
(hmmm.. we thought)
but theres no way we are going back..
so what we did..
we carried the the kayaks (my back! OUCH!) in to a little shortcut back to the sea shore..
the sand wasnt that friendly..
it almost fried our feet..
but we cant tiptoe our way..
we had to run..
run even if the kayak was heavier than me..

then we paddled back to the starting line..
hehehe..

then we rested..
bathed..

i.. rested my back..
aaaaah..
the water and the sun..
perfect combination..

then it was chow time..

YUM!
pork and cabbage..
and some mechado..
hehehe..
(more rice please.. i was really hungry.. and meling too..)

then..
we finished the last of the TUBA..

"one for the road, ling!"

weee..
it was one hell of a day..
but..
it was worth all the pain..
for the TUBA..
and the never ending paddling..
for the sun..
and for my tan..
hahaha..

hope to do this again..

2007-11-01T05:01:00.000-07:00

1. How's your life lately?
- bitter-bitter-sweet.. yeah.. i think.. full of "wishful thinkings" and "what ifs" and "blahs".. i hate it.. i want to get away.. so badly..

2. When was the last time you went out?
- last tuesday..

3 . What was the last movie you saw?
- apat dapat. dapat apat (lol) with francis.. funny..

4 . The last place you went?
- humbaan ni aling violi.. i love-hate that place..

5. Missing someone?
- super duper mega uber.. *sigh*

6. What made you smile today?
- *blank*

7. Are you scared to fall in love?
- no. but..

8. Ever thought you were in love?
- i think i was.. i hope i will be.. maskin kapoy.. maskin samok.. chada man japon..

9. What is your status right now?
- single?! (hahaha.. feeing kaayo ko..) SINGLE! since birth..

10. Did you dream last night?
- yeah.. but nevermind..

11. What were you doing this morning at 7 am?
- snoring or probably checking my phone for messages..

12 . What were you doing this morning at 10 am?
- tulog pa japon..

13. Name a country you want to visit?
- Italy..

14. Do you have a tattoo?
- wala..

15 . What was the last thing you ate?
- letchon manok..

16 . Last thing you drank?
- water..

17. Last text message received?
- natanggap na namin ang iyong request.. (hahaha..)

18. Do you have a nick name?
- yup. . its Plhong or Plhong2..

19. Things you have to do everyday?
- turn on the computer.. eat.. sleep.. look at the mirror.. stare at myself for a while.. be paranoid.. breatheeeeeee..

20 . Are you a type of person who easily gets hurt?
- im the type of person who tries not to get easily hurt..

21 . The last thing you said to one of your friends?
- mai.. lets run away.. gakabuang nako diri sa among balay..

22. Rate your day 1-10.
- -1

23 . Did anything exciting happen today?
- ziltch!!!

24. Type something that is on your mind?
- run away with me..

25 . How many things in your past do you regret?
- i dunno..

26. Do you have a best friend?
- daghan!

27. What DID you want to be when you grow up?
- marine biologist.. dream on.. hahaha..

28 . What DO you want to be when you grow up?
- a wife..

29 . Have you ever had your heart broken?
- yes. and i think i will again..

30. Do you like your life?
- fair enough..

31. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
- unfortunately yes.. but its cool..

32. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
- gays..

33. How long have you had friendster?
- hahaha..

34. Have you ever skipped school?
- hahaha.. yep..

2007-10-28T06:47:00.000-07:00

song of the day..

Strong Enough by Sheryl Crow

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I’d be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing’s true and nothing’s right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can’t change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
It’s try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I’ve shown you that I just don’t care
When I’m throwing punches in the air
When I’m broken down and I can’t stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

*sigh*

2007-10-17T13:31:00.000-07:00

im hungry..
for his lips..
for another kiss..

i could not sleep..
because the moment keeps on waking me up..
like a strong earthquake rocking my bed..
and my head..

i am again, caught, unguarded - but safe

October 17, 2007 | 2:12 AM

2007-09-25T13:13:00.000-07:00

i feel that im done with work..
and i feel that i need a good vacation..
with a friend will do..

but i still have no money..
tsk..

im dreaming of Camiguin..
or any white sand beach..

2007-09-20T11:04:00.000-07:00

im down with a flu..

did i experience bangungot?
astral projection?

ive never been so scared in my life..
only this very moment..

2007-09-10T10:04:00.000-07:00

from somebody
(im bored again)

1. on your last birthday?

- i was with my gay friends.. i was drunk.. i had a good time..

2. Yesterday?

- stayed at home.. woke up around 4pm.. had spanish sardines for my "breakfast" (aaah.. im craving for it again..) then pancit canton for "lunch"..

3. Last weekend?

- stayed home.. i think i was working.. i forgot nah..

4. Last Christmas?

- i was wide awake and alone in my room. i almost cried..

5. Last New year's eve?

- with my family feasting with the letchon..

6. Last Valentine's day?

- singles' night out at the creek..

7. What's the last thing you ate?

- fried sardines with taosi (555)..

8. Thing you drank?

- water

9. Thing you wore?

- cropped pants and white sleeveless from yesterday (wala ko naligo today kai nag ulana tugnaw kaayo. hahaha)

10. Last place you went to?

- 12 21 nazareth.. festival walk.. nag moni..

11. Last person you saw?

- my dad?!

12. Last person u talked to:

- jm?

13. Last person you've sent a msg on friendster?

- johnny..

14. Last song you heard?

- unfaithful?

15. Right this VERY SECOND what are you eating?

- wala

16. What are you wearing?

- ropped pants and white sleeveless from yesterday nga! hih!

17. Any shoes on?

- none

18. Listening to?

- nothing

19. Talking to anyone?

- jm

20. Are you a vegetarian?

- im planning to go vegetarian..

21. Are you artistic?

- hahaha..

22. Do you write poems?

- hmmm.. perhaps..

23. What kind of girlfriend/boyfriend are you?

- ill probably be the best ul ever have..

24. Finish this sentence: If I could be anyone in the world for a day..

- ill definitely be Oprah Winfrey.. why? shes my idol.. and i would want to feel the feeling of making less fortunate people happy.. sharing what i have.. enjoying what i do best..

25. The one thing you do everyday?

- surf the net..

26. Best thing in the world?

- doing what you love to do..

27. Do you believe in God?

- YES

28. Whats the best advice that someone has given to you?

- its ok to be urself..

2007-08-31T19:12:00.000-07:00

just woke up..
im waiting for something..

from Amalia Misa / Friendster

1. A is for age

22 and happy about it..

2. B is for beer of choice:

red horse para dali ma hubog.. pero im not really a beer person.. hard drinker ko.. weeee..

3. C is for what you can't wait for right now:

to reach 40k.. huhuhu..

4. D is for your dog's name:

husky the askal..

5. E is for essential item you use everyday:

lord.. daghan.. make up, clothes..

6. F is for favorite TV show at the moment:

OPRAH.. i wanna be like her.. hehehe.. im a fan..

7. G is for favorite game:

hmmm..

8. H is for Home town:

CDO!

9. I is for instruments you play:

camera! hahaha..

10. J is for favorite juice:

pineapple?

11. K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:

my parents.. hahaha..

12. L is for last food you ate:

butter na flavor na popcorn na wala nako na hurot na gi hurot sa akong papa na naulit ko.. grrr..

13. M is for marriage:

huh?

14. N is for your name:

plong, flong, plhong, phlong, plhongers, daghan..

15. O is for overnight hospital stays:

haaaa?

16. P is for people you can't live without:

papa? xa man gahatag allowance.. hahaha..

17. Q is for quote:

later na..

18. R is for Biggest Regret:

hmmm..

19. S is for status:

unfortunately/fortunatley single

20. T is for time you woke up today:

12:47 pm.. sorry.. had a long week last

21. U is for underwear you have on now:

huh? the usual.. color? white..

22. V is for vegetable you love:

i love veggieeeees..

23. W is for worst habit:

sleeping? or getting stuck in the int

24. X is for x-rays you've had:

i cant remember na.. i was hubakon then..

25. Y is for yummy food you ate today?

wala pa.. hmmm.. adobo later..

26. Z is for the zodiac sign:

aquarius..

2007-08-25T22:24:00.000-07:00

1. What would you do if you received a long love letter?

open it excitedly and hoping to cry.. (hahaha..)

2. Describe your crush?

asa sa ila? hahaha.. joke.. wala koy crush..

3. Do you text message alot?

kung naay load and if unli..

4. Do you believe in love at first sight?

i used to..

5. Whats your favorite color(s)?

ROYGBIV

6. Do you prefer to sleep or talk to a friend when it gets boring in class?

i have my own world.. lisud na makasaban sa maistra.. pero pwede japon mag tabi.. tabi or kuris2..

7. One thing that you like about your house?

everything.. kaso gubot lang karon.. hahaha..

8. Rudest thing you have done to your teacher?

talked back.. only because i know i have the right..

9. last song u downloaded?

samson by regina spektor..

10. Which part of your body is itchy and aching now?

akong kilid..

11. If you can have a choice, would you prefer to be friends or attached with someone you love now?

attached of course..

12. In one word, describe your day
today.

gloomy

13. What website(s) have you opened?

deviantart, friendster, youtube, google and blogspot..

14. What song are you listening to now?

samson

15. The latest news you've received?

we are going to dumaguete in 3 weeks.. woohooo

16. What can't you live without?

make up and camera!

17. Who can't you live withOut?

family and friends..

18. What do people think when they first meet you?

arti.. (gwapa daw.. hahaha..)

19. What was the last book you bought?

hahaha.. shet..

20. Excited ka ba sa birthday mo?

kaayo.. chada unta ako gift.. haaaay..

2007-08-24T23:02:00.000-07:00

taking a break from work..
just a quick "survey"

33 of the MOST Spontaneous Questions Ever
BE HONEST
from Steffi Seoul Dalman/Friendster

1. What do you want for your Birthday?

an all expense paid trip to Thailand or Hong Kong..

2. Who will be your next kiss?

i still have to have my first! hehehe..

3. When was the last time you went to the mall?

last sunday with Steffi, Yuri, Chrissy and Burong.. we watched A Love Story.. twas ok..

4. Are you wearing socks right now?

nope..

5. When was the last time you went out of town?

3 weeks ago..

6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?

i think so..

7. What was the last thing you had to drink?

water..

8. What are you wearing right now?

green short2 pants and a blue big2x tshirt...

9. What was your last purchase?

Hot dog on bun, V-cut, C2 iced tea and Gatorade..

10.What was the Last food you ate?

fried egg, bulad and rice..

11. Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep?

JM/Jomic/Madess!?

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?

i wish..

13. do you have a pet?

yep..

14. What was the last sporting event you saw?

badminton on tv.. hahaha..

15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?

Ireland..

16. One thing you hate about yourself?

too lazy..

17. What's your favorite soup?

sinigang..

18. Do you miss anyone?

yeah.. so badly..

19. Last play you saw?

i cant remember..

20. What are your plans for the day?

meet friends later..

21. Last person you msg'd?

Yuri..

22. Ever go to camp?

maybe soon..

23. Are you an honor roll student in school?

hahaha.. i hope to be..

24. What do you know about the (your) future?

im gonna be rich and travel the world..

25. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?

nope..

26. Where are your best friends located?

cdo, cebu, manila and taiwan (bigatin si kiko eh) and Amsterdam (si ron!) and Australia of course ( si banoy!)

27. What grade are you in?

4th year in college..

28. How old do you want to be when you have kids?

hahaha.. next question please..

29. Who was the last person who made you cry?

JM?

30. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

ears..

31. Who makes you smile?

my friends.. and John Jonayon..

32. How do you like your soda?

enough to freeze my brain..

33. Do you like hot sauce?

YEP!

34. How do you look like now? (post a picture)

this is me now!

2007-08-06T00:13:00.000-07:00

have i grown so predictable?
that people would take me easily because they know i can forgive them after a deep breath?

2007-07-09T01:18:00.000-07:00

gi sapot ko..
sa akong parents..
they always have a CHOICE!
i hate to hear them argue and say nasty things to each other..
they always have a fucking CHOICE!

why am i even wasting my time about them?
wala lang..
bad trip eh..

2007-07-08T02:32:00.000-07:00

i received a very empowering text message from a friend today..

"Gays general> are amongst the
most COURAGEOUS
persons on earth. they
have braved the Worst of
rejections; from family, to
society to most of all ,
LOVED ones. amids all the
stone-to-death-screams
of "FAGGOTS!" , they still
survive to be the best in
almost all fields and
genres. and they are
multipying exponentially to
paint a better picture of the
world..

and im proud to be one. =D"

weee..

2007-07-02T23:47:00.001-07:00

just random doodles from my cellphone..
just thought of sharing..
hehehe..

2007-06-28T03:45:00.000-07:00

NOTE : ill try to be as objective as i can even if i am full of rage at the moment..

i am so disappointed (once again)..
disappointed because people still take advantage of art and artists - like me..

as a growing artist..
i can say that i am very hard working..
i never say no to work offered to me unless theres a conflict with the schedule..
i give everybody a chance..
i always do my best to please my clients..
but once again..
i am a victim..

it sucks..

but let karma take its course..

if ever you have experience what ive just experience..
i feel for you..

but what ive learned from this is..
friends are friends..
but business is business..

p.s.
sorry..
if i got carried away..

2007-06-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

Dentists are our conscience..

so i paid my dentist a visit yesterday..
i complained about my teeth grinding activity while asleep..
about the pain im feeling on the left side of my mouth..
he then told me that i was probably over eating..
HAHAHA..
you dont need to remind me doc..
:p

i was probably over using the left side of my mouth..
so now i am letting the right side do all the chewing..
tough..
but yeah..

2007-06-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

Are You a Stress Eater?

FOOD Associated Emotional/Personality Traits

**Research for this section taken from Losing Your Pounds of Pain by Doreen Virtue, Ph.D.

1. Chocolate candy bars, plain--You desire stimulation, or feel deprived of love (desire for romance)
2. Crunchy chocolate--You feel frustrated, anxious or angry (tension or lack of love)
3. Chocolate ice cream--You feel depressed, difficulty in relationships
4. Chocolate chip, crunchy chocolate ice cream--You’re holding in anger, depression
5. Mint chocolate chip ice cream--You feel lethargic and frustrated (too much responsibilities—no time or motivation)
6. Chocolate pudding--You desire comfort, nurturing or hugs.
7. Chocolate cake --You feel empty, insecure, possibly from lack of love
8. Hot chocolate--You’ve saved up hurt feelings throughout the day and now want to ease your ego so you can sleep
9. Crunchy, high-fat foods--You feel empty b/c of frustration or anger (fried chicken, chips, fries)
10. Spicy foods topped with dairy products (pizza)--You feel depressed b/c life seems dull
11. Dairy products --You feel depressed or unloved; you desire nurturing and comfort
12. Baked goods, pastries --You feel tense and really need to relax-life is empty
13. Crunchy foods topped with dairy products --You’re holding in anger, and/or frustration
14. Sugary sweets --You want to feel energetic, or to overcome burnout
15. Colas--You feel overwhelmed by work or chores; you want to have more energy; you’d also like to feel more sexual energy, combating internal stress
16. Hamburgers and other high fat foods --You feel empty or dissatisfied with some aspects of life; may also feel insecure or inadequate

***The following is taken from The Care and Feeding of Indigo Children by Doreen Virtue, Ph.D.

17. Beer--Desire to shut out anxiety. Wanting more love, fun, and appreciation
18. Cereal and other Breakfast Foods--Procrastination, avoiding starting the day
19. Cheese (sharp)--feeling exhausted and drained, weariness
20. Coffee--burnout, resentment or dissapointment with your job
21. French fries--feeling insecure or empty
22. Ice cream--trying to soothe and renew oneself due to depression
23. Nuts--too much stress, not enough fun

Physically Based Cravings:

Tryptophan—proteins—creates brain chemical serotonin
(When serotonin is depleted, the body signals include carbohydrate cravings, mood swings, irritability, fatigue, insomnia and a decreased desire for sex.)

B vitamins—depleted by “junk food”

Vitamin C—low levels will create craving for salad, tomatoes, or other fruits and vegetables

Magnesium deficiency—low levels will create craving for chocholate

source: http://www.healingwithwisdom.com/cravings.html

2007-06-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

i feel fever-free..

but my tooth aches or my gums or my jaw..
my mouth in general..

WAIT!

before you think of anything nasty about me..
NO!
i havent done it for a long time..
HAHAHA..
(maybe thats the reason huh?! kidding!)

so..
im blaming it all to stress..
im grinding my teeth when im asleep..
so i asked mr google this morning and he told me im subconsciously/unconsciously stressed..
tsk..
so im paying my doctor a visit tomorrow before i lose my teeth..
hahaha..
if u have the same problem..
better consult urs ASAP!

2007-06-23T19:36:00.000-07:00

so i was home alone last night..
i was under my sheets while the guys partied..
tsk..

so i woke up around 10am today..
water therapy still on going..
the hot soup probably helped..

ouch!
my right ear hurts..
aaaaah!
whats happening to me..
tsk..

2007-06-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

im not feeling well today..
my body probably miss Zola's Tantico..
tsk tsk..
well..
im going out anyway..
hope the night will heal me..

make way smog, traffic and alcohol!!!
im gonna inhale you..
hahaha..

2007-06-22T01:26:00.000-07:00

it feels like 5pm now..
i dunno..
im too full to check my cellphone for the time..
i just had home grown apple mangoes, home made ginamos and home cooked bite size hotdog (i just had to put that in.. hahaha..)

so ive been sober..
for the last 1, 2, ummm more than 100 hours (it sounds longer.. hehehe..)
the last time i went out was last friday..
the last amount i spent was on a 80 pesos pressed powder..
hmmm..

i somehow miss going out but its still good to be a home buddy once in a while..
free from the smog..
traffic..
free from the tempting food of Mandarin..

but maybe tomorrow!?
i cant even tell..
hehehe..

2007-06-21T23:36:00.000-07:00

My Lakbayan grade is D!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out atLakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

2007-06-20T17:26:00.000-07:00

i am allergic to eating chicken and "occasional" drinking..
hahaha..
seriously..
i get rashes when i eat chicken..
when i drink, i bloat..
but why cant i resist them?

maybe thats one of the questions that need not be answered..
or may be its as simple as "LAMI MAN BEH!" or "I WANT TO BE FAT AND SCALY !" (unconsciously? shit!)

p.s. there is no moral lesson if your looking for one..

its a great Thursday morning!!!!
gloomy and cool..
at last the heat of the sun didn't wake me up!!!
hahaha..

2007-06-20T04:30:00.000-07:00

shuffle on

just a funny thought : i miss crying

2007-06-19T18:54:00.000-07:00

deleting a thousand messages from my other yahoo mail account..
have not shave for like 4 days..
have not taken a bath for the past 24 hours..
thank God i have no cravings for salty food..
the Oprah show last night told me that craving for salty food means you are stressed..
still could not find the link from her website..
hmmm..

still deleting..
900 more to go..

when i opened yahoo.com today..
there was a review of Evan Almighty..
its probably connected to Bruce Almighty..
if im not mistaken..
he was the reporter then..

hes taking the lead now..
of course..
with "God" still..

funny when i saw the trailer..
maybe soon will have a second great flood..
like in the bible..
when Noah made the ark..

did God know about Global Warming then?
when he said that it was the first and the last time hes going to cover the whole world with water..
well..
i hope my memory is still correct..

and in the news last night..
over population is a contributing factor to global warming..
makes a lot of sense..

if only we make it to our advantage..
over population won't really be a problem then..
tsk..

listen to Beyonce..
and have hard cough now..
i feel like im experiencing withdrawal syndrome..
i probably miss the polluted city..
been a home buddy since saturday..
hahaha..

2007-05-28T08:43:00.000-07:00

i wonder how it is to be a chicken..
or a pig..
hmmm..
perhaps ill be able to appreciate life more..
not that im complaining..
its just that i had chicken for lunch and dinner..
hehehe..

so its been a while..
im wondering who is keeping track?!
but ive been having the best times of my life the past weeks..
meeting new people..
exploring new places..
and when ever theres a body of water..
i take a dip..
*sigh*
time flies so fast when your having fun..
its a cliche..
yeah..
well..
paper works, assignments and long exams are waiting for me..
just around the corner..
yeah..
i can sense it already..
for sure..
ill be looking forward for the next long break..
i will miss sleeping til 1 pm..
hmmm..

i will surely miss Ms. Zola and here bottles..
see you on weekends zol?
hehehe..
been a fun summer..
making sure every day is savored..

2007-01-31T07:07:00.000-08:00

i am : wondering
about : a word
what word : contentment

where can i buy one?
how much does it cost?
will i find it somewhere in my messy room?
or in one of the corners of my house?
in the wet market?
in the department store?
which section?
HOW MUCH DOES IT COST???!!!
is it in ebay?

when can i buy one?
later?
in a minute?
tomorrow?
next week?
in a month?
a year maybe?

whom can i buy it from?
you?
me?
my mom?
my dad?
from nanay?

can somebody help me answer the question?
i so badly need a dose of contentment..
or an over dose of it..
so badly..
so desperately..

2007-01-29T19:54:00.000-08:00

mood : (sumkinda) EXCITED!!!

im going out today..
me and my G friends are going window shopping and shoe hunting..
we are planning to conquer the ukay - ukay too..
im hoping for a little food trip too..
hahaha..

so yeah..
im taking a break today..
more works for tomorrow..
more time here and around..
and my birthday is coming..
i hope ill be fucking wasted by that time..
and then after that..
a week maybe in Iligan..

more projects i hope..
hehehe..

see you around..

2007-01-28T05:59:00.000-08:00

realization :

if something or someone is bogging you..
u can actually have options..
one is..
you can ignore them..
talk to them like nothing happened..
eventually they will surrender..
another thing is..
still talk to them..
interact..
but let them feel that ur not that interested..
give them the i-dont-wanna-talk-about-it attitude..
or like you have amnesia..
eventually they will give up..

they will eventually realize that maybe its not meant to be..
they may stop bogging you and find someone else to screw up..

DONT FEEL GUILTY AT ALL..
because your are helping them..
they have no choice but to get back up..
love their selves more..
and love somebody else and be love in return..

but the best thing..
bitter maybe..
is to tell them the truth..
a matter of YES or NO..

and what ever may happen..
just be prepared..

coz only when ur losing that u can get to appreciate someone..
coz only when u lose that u can appreciate the smallest and simpliest victory..

i just stayed home today..
i was out last night..
i miss puking on the toilet bowl..
hearing and seeing ur waste draining down..
loving and puking..
after letting go the waste..
everything feels even better..

a little hang over..
bare with it..
it will eventually go away..

time heals..
let it..

when God closes a door, he opens a window..
just be patient..
and believe..

2006-12-06T00:34:00.000-08:00

how cruel is distance?
i am writing about you again..
i know that you know..
i have shown it in so many ways..
but it still haunts me..
this phase i am in..

they said i have to tell you..
but do i really have to?
READ ME!
i know u have already..
FILL ME IN..
somehow you have..
FEEL ME..
more..

its just hard..
this have made me selfish..
a monster..
but whats wrong if i want you?
everything?
every part of it?
maybe..
so what should i do?
i dont know..
ahh..
scream?
it has been screaming..
it has been helpless..
unrest..
disturbed..
fucked..

i pity it..
i pity me..
but..
this is my choice..
if the day comes that i have to move on because u already have..
i will cry..
it will cry..
but not forever..
it will be strong again..
stronger again..

but today and maybe tomorrow..
i am hoping and will be hoping..
that it wont happen..
that you are different..
that we are different..

discontentment..
i know its human nature..
but i say screw it!
its killing me..
and some one million other..

2006-11-29T03:31:00.001-08:00

my heart is screaming..
she is having a hard time the past days..

2006-11-27T03:13:00.000-08:00

1 Corinthians 13

The Way of Love

13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, i am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if i have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if i have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, i am nothing. 3 If I give away all i have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, [1] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient and kind; love does not evny or boast; it is not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not reject at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 love bears all things, believes all things, hope all things, endures all things.

8 love never ends. as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When i was a child, i spoke like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child. When i become a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now i know in part; then i shall know fully, even as i have been fully known.

13 So now faith, hope and love abide, these three; but the greates of these
is love.

2006-10-15T03:39:00.000-07:00

state : in the mood for writting nonsense

nonsense..
nonsense..
nonsense..

gees..
i need a good laugh..
i dont know if i should take my horoscope seriously..
it just make sense surprisingly..
it never failed to slap me..
but?
theres always a "but?"..
theres always something that is stopping me..

there are questions in life, about life, that will be left unanswered..
and to those who doubt?
who questions?
i dont know..
what will happen to them?
maybe thats one of the questions im talking about..

im shrugging now..
im not really sure..
f*ck!

aaaaaaaaaah..
im tired of this riddle..

2006-10-02T03:14:00.000-07:00

state : dreamy and blank

dear ________,

HAH!
you got me..
i dont really know what to say..
where to start..
and how to end..

how am i you might ask?!
i was great..
the weather got me today..
im happy..
but im just tired..
life?
still full of sickening drama..
still full of foolish people minding other people's life..
may the gods help them..
poor unfortunate souls..
im glad ur ok..
im glad ur taking things positively..
it makes me feel better seeing you like that..
keep it up..
love?
what about love?
relationships?
destiny?
life-time partner?
oh..
honestly..
even if i deny it..
it still haunts me til this very day..
i try to make others believe that i have no time for love..
but who am i fooling?!
myself!
guess im one of those people..
i just have no time for other people's lives..
im busy thinking about mine and yours..
i think thats just enough..
hahaha..
im laughing now..
im not even sure if im still making sense..
love?
honestly!
im sick of searching for it..
im so sick of waiting..
of believing that "HE" is coming for me..
what am i doing?
nothing?
or should i still look harder?
deeper?
around?

2006-09-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

mood : wondering / wandering

dear self,

back so soon?
yeah..
i was wandering around the net..
and i found stuff..
which made me wonder..
hmmmp..
the world has created a lot of "man eating monsters"..
am i with them?
have i become a predator too?
that makes me wonder..
hahaha..
funny..

gudnyt2..

2006-09-01T00:22:00.000-07:00

mood : full

dear self,

im having my day..
no longer thinking of school..
perhaps tomorrow i will for the last time..
i hope..
i hope not..

just had tuna-lettuce salad, a cup of rice and corned beef for my breakfast at 2:00 pm..
it was tough finding a bottle of mayo..
it took me almost an hour finding one near my house..
but it was all worth it..

i havent taken a bath for almost three days now..
i guess im back to normal..
i cant wait for my hot shower later..
32 degrees is good to the hair..
lower than 32 is way better..
but i love my body so probably ill increase the temperature everynow and then..
hehehe..

am i laughing now?
maybe..
time has been so tough..
but fair..
its allowing me to breathe again now..
more fresh air please..

how are you?

2006-08-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

mood : speechless / eager / happy / sad

its one of those days..

2006-08-26T09:39:00.000-07:00

mood : mixed confusion

dear self,

how are you?
you've been away from me for a while..
you should have not been away..
you should have experience what i experienced the past days..
it was such a "high"..
how am i now you ask?
i dont know..
im full of questions right now..
full of ideal realizations..
in denial..
still feeling that i am in control..
but i am not..
not anymore..
i owe reality so much that its constraining things to me now..
i owe reality so much that it has grown cold and selfish to me now..
and here i am again..
writing..
asking..
wondering..
blank..
feeling lost..
know what i want but not getting a taste of it..
what is the moral of this?
now you tell me..
i just feel like my life is a meaningless work of art..
a senseless poem..
an ungracious dance..
an out of tune song..
that i am trying to fix at 21..
dear self..
will you promise me that you will be ok?
that we will be able to go through this together..