state : in the mood for writting nonsense

nonsense..
nonsense..
nonsense..

gees..
i need a good laugh..
i dont know if i should take my horoscope seriously..
it just make sense surprisingly..
it never failed to slap me..
but?
theres always a "but?"..
theres always something that is stopping me..

there are questions in life, about life, that will be left unanswered..
and to those who doubt?
who questions?
i dont know..
what will happen to them?
maybe thats one of the questions im talking about..

im shrugging now..
im not really sure..
f*ck!

aaaaaaaaaah..
im tired of this riddle..

state : dreamy and blank

dear ________,


HAH!
you got me..
i dont really know what to say..
where to start..
and how to end..

how am i you might ask?!
i was great..
the weather got me today..
im happy..
but im just tired..
life?
still full of sickening drama..
still full of foolish people minding other people's life..
may the gods help them..
poor unfortunate souls..
im glad ur ok..
im glad ur taking things positively..
it makes me feel better seeing you like that..
keep it up..
love?
what about love?
relationships?
destiny?
life-time partner?
oh..
honestly..
even if i deny it..
it still haunts me til this very day..
i try to make others believe that i have no time for love..
but who am i fooling?!
myself!
guess im one of those people..
i just have no time for other people's lives..
im busy thinking about mine and yours..
i think thats just enough..
hahaha..
im laughing now..
im not even sure if im still making sense..
love?
honestly!
im sick of searching for it..
im so sick of waiting..
of believing that "HE" is coming for me..
what am i doing?
nothing?
or should i still look harder?
deeper?
around?