NOTE : ill try to be as objective as i can even if i am full of rage at the moment..

i am so disappointed (once again)..
disappointed because people still take advantage of art and artists - like me..

as a growing artist..
i can say that i am very hard working..
i never say no to work offered to me unless theres a conflict with the schedule..
i give everybody a chance..
i always do my best to please my clients..
but once again..
i am a victim..

it sucks..

but let karma take its course..

if ever you have experience what ive just experience..
i feel for you..

but what ive learned from this is..
friends are friends..
but business is business..

p.s.
sorry..
if i got carried away..

Dentists are our conscience..

so i paid my dentist a visit yesterday..
i complained about my teeth grinding activity while asleep..
about the pain im feeling on the left side of my mouth..
he then told me that i was probably over eating..
HAHAHA..
you dont need to remind me doc..
:p

i was probably over using the left side of my mouth..
so now i am letting the right side do all the chewing..
tough..
but yeah..

Are You a Stress Eater?

FOOD Associated Emotional/Personality Traits

**Research for this section taken from Losing Your Pounds of Pain by Doreen Virtue, Ph.D.

1. Chocolate candy bars, plain--You desire stimulation, or feel deprived of love (desire for romance)
2. Crunchy chocolate--You feel frustrated, anxious or angry (tension or lack of love)
3. Chocolate ice cream--You feel depressed, difficulty in relationships
4. Chocolate chip, crunchy chocolate ice cream--You’re holding in anger, depression
5. Mint chocolate chip ice cream--You feel lethargic and frustrated (too much responsibilities—no time or motivation)
6. Chocolate pudding--You desire comfort, nurturing or hugs.
7. Chocolate cake --You feel empty, insecure, possibly from lack of love
8. Hot chocolate--You’ve saved up hurt feelings throughout the day and now want to ease your ego so you can sleep
9. Crunchy, high-fat foods--You feel empty b/c of frustration or anger (fried chicken, chips, fries)
10. Spicy foods topped with dairy products (pizza)--You feel depressed b/c life seems dull
11. Dairy products --You feel depressed or unloved; you desire nurturing and comfort
12. Baked goods, pastries --You feel tense and really need to relax-life is empty
13. Crunchy foods topped with dairy products --You’re holding in anger, and/or frustration
14. Sugary sweets --You want to feel energetic, or to overcome burnout
15. Colas--You feel overwhelmed by work or chores; you want to have more energy; you’d also like to feel more sexual energy, combating internal stress
16. Hamburgers and other high fat foods --You feel empty or dissatisfied with some aspects of life; may also feel insecure or inadequate

***The following is taken from The Care and Feeding of Indigo Children by Doreen Virtue, Ph.D.

17. Beer--Desire to shut out anxiety. Wanting more love, fun, and appreciation
18. Cereal and other Breakfast Foods--Procrastination, avoiding starting the day
19. Cheese (sharp)--feeling exhausted and drained, weariness
20. Coffee--burnout, resentment or dissapointment with your job
21. French fries--feeling insecure or empty
22. Ice cream--trying to soothe and renew oneself due to depression
23. Nuts--too much stress, not enough fun

Physically Based Cravings:

Tryptophan—proteins—creates brain chemical serotonin
(When serotonin is depleted, the body signals include carbohydrate cravings, mood swings, irritability, fatigue, insomnia and a decreased desire for sex.)

B vitamins—depleted by “junk food”

Vitamin C—low levels will create craving for salad, tomatoes, or other fruits and vegetables

Magnesium deficiency—low levels will create craving for chocholate

source: http://www.healingwithwisdom.com/cravings.html

i feel fever-free..

but my tooth aches or my gums or my jaw..
my mouth in general..

WAIT!

before you think of anything nasty about me..
NO!
i havent done it for a long time..
HAHAHA..
(maybe thats the reason huh?! kidding!)

so..
im blaming it all to stress..
im grinding my teeth when im asleep..
so i asked mr google this morning and he told me im subconsciously/unconsciously stressed..
tsk..
so im paying my doctor a visit tomorrow before i lose my teeth..
hahaha..
if u have the same problem..
better consult urs ASAP!

so i was home alone last night..
i was under my sheets while the guys partied..
tsk..

so i woke up around 10am today..
water therapy still on going..
the hot soup probably helped..

ouch!
my right ear hurts..
aaaaah!
whats happening to me..
tsk..

im not feeling well today..
my body probably miss Zola's Tantico..
tsk tsk..
well..
im going out anyway..
hope the night will heal me..

make way smog, traffic and alcohol!!!
im gonna inhale you..
hahaha..

it feels like 5pm now..
i dunno..
im too full to check my cellphone for the time..
i just had home grown apple mangoes, home made ginamos and home cooked bite size hotdog (i just had to put that in.. hahaha..)

so ive been sober..
for the last 1, 2, ummm more than 100 hours (it sounds longer.. hehehe..)
the last time i went out was last friday..
the last amount i spent was on a 80 pesos pressed powder..
hmmm..

i somehow miss going out but its still good to be a home buddy once in a while..
free from the smog..
traffic..
free from the tempting food of Mandarin..

but maybe tomorrow!?
i cant even tell..
hehehe..

My Lakbayan grade is D!

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Created by Eugene Villar.

i am allergic to eating chicken and "occasional" drinking..
hahaha..
seriously..
i get rashes when i eat chicken..
when i drink, i bloat..
but why cant i resist them?

maybe thats one of the questions that need not be answered..
or may be its as simple as "LAMI MAN BEH!" or "I WANT TO BE FAT AND SCALY !" (unconsciously? shit!)

p.s. there is no moral lesson if your looking for one..

its a great Thursday morning!!!!
gloomy and cool..
at last the heat of the sun didn't wake me up!!!
hahaha..

shuffle on

just a funny thought : i miss crying

deleting a thousand messages from my other yahoo mail account..
have not shave for like 4 days..
have not taken a bath for the past 24 hours..
thank God i have no cravings for salty food..
the Oprah show last night told me that craving for salty food means you are stressed..
still could not find the link from her website..
hmmm..

still deleting..
900 more to go..

when i opened yahoo.com today..
there was a review of Evan Almighty..
its probably connected to Bruce Almighty..
if im not mistaken..
he was the reporter then..

hes taking the lead now..
of course..
with "God" still..

funny when i saw the trailer..
maybe soon will have a second great flood..
like in the bible..
when Noah made the ark..

did God know about Global Warming then?
when he said that it was the first and the last time hes going to cover the whole world with water..
well..
i hope my memory is still correct..

and in the news last night..
over population is a contributing factor to global warming..
makes a lot of sense..

if only we make it to our advantage..
over population won't really be a problem then..
tsk..

listen to Beyonce..
and have hard cough now..
i feel like im experiencing withdrawal syndrome..
i probably miss the polluted city..
been a home buddy since saturday..
hahaha..