"what you do not know wont hurt you | ignorance is bliss"

why is it so hard to just be satisfied why what is given to you?
why do you have to bite the hands of the person who gave you a solution to hunger?
why do you have to make a problem for yourself when you said you had enough of it?
why cant you just be contented of what is given to you?
why do you have to make it hard for yourself?
why do you have to doubt?
why cant you settle for the things that come your way?
why do you have to complicate it Plhong?

Because hes giving reasons to doubt him?
because he gives me reasons to ask for more..
because he is special..
because i dont want to be hurt again..
because i dont want to lose him..

my heart is crying..
my eyes are ok..
its like being squeezed and punched and stabbed but still beating and pumping - non stop..


when everything is so ironic..
when everything is so unsure..
when everything is a blur..

when will you give me rest?