you had me first..
but then after a month..
you let me go..
i had you second..
but you could not understand me..
you let me go..
i had my first..
but its all a blur..
please don't let me go..
i had you third or fourth..
but now I'm not so sure..
please don't let me know..
its all so confusing..
its all so controlling..
conflicting..
disturbing..
it has been beating my heart..
it has been sipping my brains..
if something has to end..
let it be something I'm not holding on to..
if i was your first..
thank you..
i have moved on..
if you were my second..
thank you..
i will carry on..
if you are my first..
free me and feel me..
so that i can go on..
if you are my first and i am you last..
i love you..
let our love hold on..
