i still haven't seen the sun today..
but you were there..
always been there..
never failed to brighten my days..
i haven't been writing lately..
been through a lot of things..
things more important..
but i know he'll understand..
so how are you?
miss me?
realizations?
i have tons of them..
in my mind..
i wanna play the drums..
i have seen a lot of people playing around with it..
their hands and feet..
working together..
so hypnotic..
like i just wanna loose myself to it..
i like staring at a moving car..
and the sunset almost blinding..
i like how fast the disappear..
and how i extend my neck to chase them til they vanish..
i hate how good i can become to people..
and yet..
over and over they stab me at the back..
i hate how they steal love away from me..
that i, almost, deprive myself from..
i hate how i loose ways to express myself..
that i myself could not understand myself any longer..
just like now..
but then again..
thank you..
i thank him..
for always being there for me..
like sunshine..
like the clouds..
like the rain..
like the rainbow..
for always reminding me that you are always around..
after the hot day..
and after the storm..
